Summer's End

I'm bored.

So!

I'm gonna write about myself for once!

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I seek out who I truly am and I still seek. Lacking the ability to open up easily to other people and any attractive features, I find it hard to connect to others at first glance.

Which in turn displays my lack of luck with the opposite gender.

Though I may be more inclined towards something I love and refuse to admit there are better things out there, I often have come to find that there are much more to things than what meets the eye. Gradually, I have seen the light that the best things in life come in a variety.

The variety of differences and the differences of variety are what make life much more beautiful.

Severely deprived of exercise, I am frail not only in physical means but emotionally as well. I find it hard, near impossible, to put my all into focusing on one matter.

I cheat my way out of things.

And the cycle repeats.

Always.

All in all, I'm just a boy living in a very funny world.

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I don't think I made much sense, did I?

Broken Hands

I've been getting lots of people asking me what I'm gonna do once I'm done with school. What I'll be doing in the future, what I'll be doing for a living.
So far, I've only thought of answers like "Dunno", "See how first lar" or just a shrug.

And finally I have a solid answer:
Do I look like a man with a plan?

The Passing

Valentine's Day?
Hmmm...

What about it?

99

Still gets to me after watching him 3 times.
Pure absolute genius.

Casting Such A Thin Shadow

I'm worried 'bout my future.
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Not exactly about my exams. Well, maybe a little actually but not exactly it.
I'm more or less worried about what I'm gonna do after school and after collecting my death warrant, my SPM results slip that is.
You know, I actually didn't really bother thinking about what I wanna do. Just go with flow or any spontaneous ideas.
That is until my dad offered me his job.

I could just quit school now and start earning some money.
Quite some money to be frank.
According to him if I were to accept his offer, I'd be able to make at least RM10000 a month as long as I do the work diligently.
What's more is that I even set what time my working hours begin and end. Imagine that, I could even work less hours than an office worker but yet earn more and yet get to keep a hobby! Probably even hobbies! Any hobby!
Not to be boasting or anything but my dad is known as one of Toyota's best salesman and has practically a legion of loyal customers.
So I'd inherit all that it I just accept his offer.

Preposterous but true!
It's like an offer of being controlled with freedom!
I'd have to be crazy/delirious/foolish/absurd/out-of-my-mind/hallucinating/nuts/mad to even think of turning it down!

But is it what I really want?
I've been through a lot of consideration on the offer but somehow or another, I only end up turning it down.
I mean business isn't really my cup of tea.
Wait. Scratch that.
Business isn't my cup of tea at all.

I still don't know what I want to do in the near future. College perhaps?
Even if I do make it to college, what am I gonna do?
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More Than Ever

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you

Black & Blue

Ledt the house by 1 p.m. with:
- A wallet with RM19
- An electric guitar
- A multi-effect processor
- A 15-watt amp
- 2 cables

An hour plus of jamming at a friend's place.
Late lunch/early dinner at Kassim.

By 4 to 6 p.m.:
- A wallet with RM 9.80

A visit the nearby NetCity immediately after that.

Home by midnight:
- An empty stomach
- A dry tongue

A hole in my wallet there is.
And a big one it is...

But rejoice!
For CNY is just around the corner!
A time to be paid for being young and single!
=D

Current mood: Greedy! Materialistic!
Currently listening to: All The Lost Souls - James Blunt

Iron Mask

Madmen are geniuses, geniuses are madmen.
So?
So!

Go crazy.
Lose your mind.
Lose yourself.

Cause you won't be getting anything or anywhere by thinking in the box.


Plus, it'd be boring you know...

Disarry

I feel materialistic.

OR

OR

OR

Agreed?

11th Hour

SPM this year ar? Aiya, SUDAH PASTI MAPOI d one lar. What for work so hard somemore?
Tsk tsk.

Is There?

This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind

I've given a lot of thought
on this 13 hour drive
I miss the grinded concrete
where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing
In the glow of our headlights.

I've given a lot of thought
to the nights we used to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast

I faintly remember breathing
on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you,
but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if I
don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
pretend its all okay
That there someone out there
who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought
of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter
in every single word
There will be a hidden message
about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me?
Will I shake this off?
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is

Hearts Burst Into Fire

You know what? Looking at that "Why I Shouldn't Have A Girlfriend" nonsense, I not only just lied to everyone who read it but I guess I'm cheating myself as well.
So here I am presenting a more truthful side of me on "My Ideal Girlfriend". Enjoy~
=)

Physique
Hair
Long or short, it doesn't really matter with an exception of hairstyles so short to the point that you can't tell whether it's a HE or SHE.
Eyes
Wuuu. I love ladies with sparkly eyes and/or seductive eyes. Rawrrr~
Body
Doesn't really need to be THAT curvy and/or busty, though it's a plus. I mean I'm not looking for a Barbie-look-a-like you know.
Height
Slightly but not too much shorter than me even when on high heels. Don't you think we'd look more like siblings if she were taller than me or equally as tall as me? Ugh.
So yeah, overall I prefer pretty girls, not hot girls. I did just say I'm not looking for a Barbie-look-a-like.
It'd also be a plus if she looks like Hayley Williams!
=D

Personality
Open mindedness
Always has been on the top of the list. Who knows how I'm gonna look like once I'm done with SPM?
A certain sense of personal space
I like having my own "me-time" as I sometimes prefer doing things alone and I'm sure I'm not alone when it comes to this. After all, as the saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
Decency
I wouldn't wanna be mistaken for hooking up with a hooker. Or worse, a "LALA". Oh, the shame.
Confidence
In my opinion, girls should know where they stand and how to stand up for their own good. Girl Power right?
It'd also be awesome if I could find such a girl with at least some common interests in our choice of music.
Maybe an occasional gamer as well. Heh.

Well, I guess that's about it. I shall continue on my quest for the perfect-girl-which-probably-doesn't-exist. Wish me luck.

And what's with this sudden craving for beer? Ohhh dear~

Current mood: I feels heavy, =/
Currently listening to: Fortress - Protest The Hero

RAWWWRR!

WARNING: This is a heavy metal video.

Music: Bleed - Meshuggah