City Of Delusion

Three-One
It seems ever so long.

I can't bang my head on the table anymore...
stupid stupid dream
=(

Untitled

I. AM. NO. EMO!
*bangs head on table*
>=(

Times Like These

I actually realized quite a number of things already...

01. It's March next week!
02. ZOMFG! I haven't studied crap!
03. Did I just use ZOMFG? What the hell man...
04. My hair's growing rather slowly.
05. I've actually been doing my homework...
06. I just discovered how to have fun with music.
07. People keep saying that my writing is really nice and neat. Is it?
08. I've been updating this blog rather frequently.
09. 2009's gonna be quite bland in terms of my music, =/
10. It's the 17th Valentine's Day that I'm single!
11. I forget a lot of stuff really quickly.
12. I got speak very canggih English meh? Got mehh?
13. I'm not as energetic as I used to be, cihh.
14. My fingers are kinda long.
15. There are more than one non-black and non-white shirts in my cupboard.
16. No gigs so far?! WTFWTFWTFTWF?!
17. I wanna go for Sunburst Festival!
18. That is, 'til I saw the artist lineup.
19. I need to get piss drunk.
20. Harvest wasn't good this CNY.
21. Foo Fighters has been playing on my PC, MP3 player and head a lot lately.
22. I wanna move down to KL.
23, Or maybe Sweden!
24. I'm no emo!
25. Maybe colors + emo?
26. Colormo or emolor then!
27. Piercings! Tattoos! I need 'em fast!
28. I think I'm jaded.
29. I just remembered recently that I wear glasses.
30. I've done that dumb kursus thing since November or December 2008 and I have yet to take the exam.
31. I hate Thursdays, =l
32. I got a 500 word essay to do and it's wayyy past it's deadline. Hohoho~
33. I'm short...
34. I've lived in Malaysia for over 16 years and I've only been to KL and Johor.
35. Did I mention that I forget things easily?

Summer's End

I'm bored.

So!

I'm gonna write about myself for once!

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I seek out who I truly am and I still seek. Lacking the ability to open up easily to other people and any attractive features, I find it hard to connect to others at first glance.

Which in turn displays my lack of luck with the opposite gender.

Though I may be more inclined towards something I love and refuse to admit there are better things out there, I often have come to find that there are much more to things than what meets the eye. Gradually, I have seen the light that the best things in life come in a variety.

The variety of differences and the differences of variety are what make life much more beautiful.

Severely deprived of exercise, I am frail not only in physical means but emotionally as well. I find it hard, near impossible, to put my all into focusing on one matter.

I cheat my way out of things.

And the cycle repeats.

Always.

All in all, I'm just a boy living in a very funny world.

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I don't think I made much sense, did I?

Broken Hands

I've been getting lots of people asking me what I'm gonna do once I'm done with school. What I'll be doing in the future, what I'll be doing for a living.
So far, I've only thought of answers like "Dunno", "See how first lar" or just a shrug.

And finally I have a solid answer:
Do I look like a man with a plan?

The Passing

Valentine's Day?
Hmmm...

What about it?

99

Still gets to me after watching him 3 times.
Pure absolute genius.

Iron Mask

Madmen are geniuses, geniuses are madmen.
So?
So!

Go crazy.
Lose your mind.
Lose yourself.

Cause you won't be getting anything or anywhere by thinking in the box.


Plus, it'd be boring you know...

Disarry

I feel materialistic.

OR

OR

OR

Agreed?

11th Hour

SPM this year ar? Aiya, SUDAH PASTI MAPOI d one lar. What for work so hard somemore?
Tsk tsk.

Hearts Burst Into Fire

You know what? Looking at that "Why I Shouldn't Have A Girlfriend" nonsense, I not only just lied to everyone who read it but I guess I'm cheating myself as well.
So here I am presenting a more truthful side of me on "My Ideal Girlfriend". Enjoy~
=)

Physique
Hair
Long or short, it doesn't really matter with an exception of hairstyles so short to the point that you can't tell whether it's a HE or SHE.
Eyes
Wuuu. I love ladies with sparkly eyes and/or seductive eyes. Rawrrr~
Body
Doesn't really need to be THAT curvy and/or busty, though it's a plus. I mean I'm not looking for a Barbie-look-a-like you know.
Height
Slightly but not too much shorter than me even when on high heels. Don't you think we'd look more like siblings if she were taller than me or equally as tall as me? Ugh.
So yeah, overall I prefer pretty girls, not hot girls. I did just say I'm not looking for a Barbie-look-a-like.
It'd also be a plus if she looks like Hayley Williams!
=D

Personality
Open mindedness
Always has been on the top of the list. Who knows how I'm gonna look like once I'm done with SPM?
A certain sense of personal space
I like having my own "me-time" as I sometimes prefer doing things alone and I'm sure I'm not alone when it comes to this. After all, as the saying goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
Decency
I wouldn't wanna be mistaken for hooking up with a hooker. Or worse, a "LALA". Oh, the shame.
Confidence
In my opinion, girls should know where they stand and how to stand up for their own good. Girl Power right?
It'd also be awesome if I could find such a girl with at least some common interests in our choice of music.
Maybe an occasional gamer as well. Heh.

Well, I guess that's about it. I shall continue on my quest for the perfect-girl-which-probably-doesn't-exist. Wish me luck.

And what's with this sudden craving for beer? Ohhh dear~

Current mood: I feels heavy, =/
Currently listening to: Fortress - Protest The Hero

RAWWWRR!

WARNING: This is a heavy metal video.

Music: Bleed - Meshuggah

Almost Easy

4 posts this month, 5 actually if including this one. I must say, I've really outdone myself already. Kudos to the holidays as well.

You wanna know something? I love my Form 4 life very much. Why? I had the best seat in class man! Second row from the back and directly under the fan! I tell you man, that alone makes this year the best year of my schooling life. Imagine when you're sleeping. Fuhhhh, best I tell you. A seat far from the teacher and directly under the fan plus a very soft school bag. No wonder 2008 flew just like that mannn.

Oh, and I had this dream that everyone came back for Christmas.
=)

Follow - Second Movement

Alright alright, i'll be serious now already.

Why I should not have a girlfriend?
- Lazy
- My money likes going elsewhere
- Sien
- My parents very the inquisitive one so very troublesome
- I know too many kaypos already
- Last but not least, no skillz

Here are the people who share the same boredom with me:
- Rachel Yeoh
- Ying Shu
- Kah Heng

Follow

Why I shouldn't have a girlfriend?

- I
- Have
- No
- Idea
- Why
- I
- Should
- Not
- Have
- A
- Girlfriend
- When
- I ( think )
- Already
- Found
- Her
- =]


P/s: I was forced to write this by the following people, =)
- Rachel Yeoh
- Khoo Ying Shu
- Khoo Kah Heng

This Sadness Will Never End

I'm choking on my words.
Like I got a noose around my neck,
I can't believe it's come to this.

I won't give up on you,
so please don't give up on me
It's not too late for us,
so let me save you from yourself.

I won't give up
No, I won't give up on you.

Now close your eyes
'cause there's nothing we can do anymore
but sleep in this bed that we made for ourselves.

Is there hope for us?
Can we make it out alive?

Chapter Four

You entered: Garren Chin Wei Loon

There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 100
There are 7 vowels and 10 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

German	Male	Guards; guardian.
French	Male	Guards; guardian.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished


@ http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
I dunno how true it is but just for the fun of it, so yea.

Unto Others

Once upon a time in the Vatican City, a large number of Singh illegal immigrants entered into Vatican. Upon seeing this, the Pope obviously wasn't pleased at all. Despite how troubled the Pope felt, he knew he had to solve this problem without causing any arms raised so he called for a wordless debate.
On the day agreed by both parties, they met up at St. Peter's Square. The Pope started off the debate by making a circle with his hand and then pointing away. The immigrants representative responded by pointing down. Intrigued, the Pope held up 3 fingers and the Singh help up only 1 finger. Finally, the Pope took out a piece of bread and a cup of wine and the Singh responded by taking out an apple.

The Pope stepped down and returned to his people looking very pleased. His right-hand man asked why so and the Pope announced that the Singhs were allowed to stay as long as they wanted. Shocked, his people asked him why. The Pope explained that when he made a circle and pointed away with his hand, he was implying that God is everywhere but he is in Heaven right now and the Singh reminded the Pope that God is right here now as they speak by pointing down. When the Pope took up his 3 fingers, he meant that they worshiped the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. The Singh yet again reminded him that they still worshiped one God although He is known as 3 different entities. Finally when the Pope took out the piece of bread and cup of wine, he was speaking of the body and blood of Jesus. The Singh's response of taking out an apple meant their origin of sin. Seeing the Pope's explanation, the people of Vatican City also welcomed the Singhs with open arms.

Onto the Singh's side now...
When the Pope stepped down, the Singh representative stepped down as well. His people asked how did it go. The Singh was annoyed when the Pope made the circle with his hand and pointed away. The Singh thought that the Pope was asking the lot of them to get out and responded by pointing down which meant that they were staying no matter what. When the Pope took up 3 fingers, the Singh intepreted that as they had 3 days to leave but having nowhere to go, he took up only 1 finger to say "FK YOU!". And his people questioned him about the last part of the debate..
Singh people : Why did you take out an apple when that Pope fella took out the bread and wine??
Singh representative: How should I know?! That fella took out his lunch so I took out mine!!

I know. I'm bored though I should be studying.
:)
And please don't sue me for racism or anything, I didn't mean any harm and I'm broke as it is already...

Dead End

I'm here basically 'cause i'm bored.
So yeah, the end.

Drive

If seeing you everyday is a dream,
please don't wake me up.
Even if your heart already belongs to someone else.

Because in the end,
it's you and only you that matters.