Hope Leaves

Twisted these holidays has been.
It has been one real blessing that my exams were set before the school holidays this time. Yet somehow crazy as it seems, there's this certain yearning for more challenges. I remember the very night before my Moral exams where I crammed 12 of those good-for-nothing nilai-s into my head and on the break of very day of my Literature exam was the only 30 minutes of 2009 where I sat down and tried memorizing a poem with like around 50 - 60 words.

And you wanna know what these two subjects have in common?
A single damn mistake and it's game over!

But oddly enough, everything stayed in.
It was as if it had always been there waiting for a little reminding. And the feeling of being able to just recite them as I go.
It was beyond euphoric, beyond words, beyond anything.

Sadly enough, where there are ups, there are bound to be downs in life.
As you know, last minute studying never bears much fruit and thus, I shall not elaborate any further in my examinations.
:)

Well, the holidays which have just passed left me with a lot of things to think about. Thanks to the fact my computer was down for a whole damn week. And once again, I'm faced with the fact that I have no idea of what I wanna do in the coming future.

Unfortunately I'm running out of the inspiration that made me start this post. So I'll probably continue on some other time if I ever get that certain inspiration again.
Hopefully.

Current mood: Meh...
Currently listening to: Dead Memories - Slipknot

Black Label

No need for introductions, I've read about people like YOU on the backs of toilet doors.

SO FUCK YOU.
So get lost.

So get out of my face.
So get out of my life.

Times Like These

I actually realized quite a number of things already...

01. It's March next week!
02. ZOMFG! I haven't studied crap!
03. Did I just use ZOMFG? What the hell man...
04. My hair's growing rather slowly.
05. I've actually been doing my homework...
06. I just discovered how to have fun with music.
07. People keep saying that my writing is really nice and neat. Is it?
08. I've been updating this blog rather frequently.
09. 2009's gonna be quite bland in terms of my music, =/
10. It's the 17th Valentine's Day that I'm single!
11. I forget a lot of stuff really quickly.
12. I got speak very canggih English meh? Got mehh?
13. I'm not as energetic as I used to be, cihh.
14. My fingers are kinda long.
15. There are more than one non-black and non-white shirts in my cupboard.
16. No gigs so far?! WTFWTFWTFTWF?!
17. I wanna go for Sunburst Festival!
18. That is, 'til I saw the artist lineup.
19. I need to get piss drunk.
20. Harvest wasn't good this CNY.
21. Foo Fighters has been playing on my PC, MP3 player and head a lot lately.
22. I wanna move down to KL.
23, Or maybe Sweden!
24. I'm no emo!
25. Maybe colors + emo?
26. Colormo or emolor then!
27. Piercings! Tattoos! I need 'em fast!
28. I think I'm jaded.
29. I just remembered recently that I wear glasses.
30. I've done that dumb kursus thing since November or December 2008 and I have yet to take the exam.
31. I hate Thursdays, =l
32. I got a 500 word essay to do and it's wayyy past it's deadline. Hohoho~
33. I'm short...
34. I've lived in Malaysia for over 16 years and I've only been to KL and Johor.
35. Did I mention that I forget things easily?

Summer's End

I'm bored.

So!

I'm gonna write about myself for once!

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I seek out who I truly am and I still seek. Lacking the ability to open up easily to other people and any attractive features, I find it hard to connect to others at first glance.

Which in turn displays my lack of luck with the opposite gender.

Though I may be more inclined towards something I love and refuse to admit there are better things out there, I often have come to find that there are much more to things than what meets the eye. Gradually, I have seen the light that the best things in life come in a variety.

The variety of differences and the differences of variety are what make life much more beautiful.

Severely deprived of exercise, I am frail not only in physical means but emotionally as well. I find it hard, near impossible, to put my all into focusing on one matter.

I cheat my way out of things.

And the cycle repeats.

Always.

All in all, I'm just a boy living in a very funny world.

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I don't think I made much sense, did I?

Broken Hands

I've been getting lots of people asking me what I'm gonna do once I'm done with school. What I'll be doing in the future, what I'll be doing for a living.
So far, I've only thought of answers like "Dunno", "See how first lar" or just a shrug.

And finally I have a solid answer:
Do I look like a man with a plan?

The Passing

Valentine's Day?
Hmmm...

What about it?

99

Still gets to me after watching him 3 times.
Pure absolute genius.

Casting Such A Thin Shadow

I'm worried 'bout my future.
=/

Not exactly about my exams. Well, maybe a little actually but not exactly it.
I'm more or less worried about what I'm gonna do after school and after collecting my death warrant, my SPM results slip that is.
You know, I actually didn't really bother thinking about what I wanna do. Just go with flow or any spontaneous ideas.
That is until my dad offered me his job.

I could just quit school now and start earning some money.
Quite some money to be frank.
According to him if I were to accept his offer, I'd be able to make at least RM10000 a month as long as I do the work diligently.
What's more is that I even set what time my working hours begin and end. Imagine that, I could even work less hours than an office worker but yet earn more and yet get to keep a hobby! Probably even hobbies! Any hobby!
Not to be boasting or anything but my dad is known as one of Toyota's best salesman and has practically a legion of loyal customers.
So I'd inherit all that it I just accept his offer.

Preposterous but true!
It's like an offer of being controlled with freedom!
I'd have to be crazy/delirious/foolish/absurd/out-of-my-mind/hallucinating/nuts/mad to even think of turning it down!

But is it what I really want?
I've been through a lot of consideration on the offer but somehow or another, I only end up turning it down.
I mean business isn't really my cup of tea.
Wait. Scratch that.
Business isn't my cup of tea at all.

I still don't know what I want to do in the near future. College perhaps?
Even if I do make it to college, what am I gonna do?
=/

More Than Ever

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you

Black & Blue

Ledt the house by 1 p.m. with:
- A wallet with RM19
- An electric guitar
- A multi-effect processor
- A 15-watt amp
- 2 cables

An hour plus of jamming at a friend's place.
Late lunch/early dinner at Kassim.

By 4 to 6 p.m.:
- A wallet with RM 9.80

A visit the nearby NetCity immediately after that.

Home by midnight:
- An empty stomach
- A dry tongue

A hole in my wallet there is.
And a big one it is...

But rejoice!
For CNY is just around the corner!
A time to be paid for being young and single!
=D

Current mood: Greedy! Materialistic!
Currently listening to: All The Lost Souls - James Blunt

Iron Mask

Madmen are geniuses, geniuses are madmen.
So?
So!

Go crazy.
Lose your mind.
Lose yourself.

Cause you won't be getting anything or anywhere by thinking in the box.


Plus, it'd be boring you know...

Disarry

I feel materialistic.

OR

OR

OR

Agreed?

11th Hour

SPM this year ar? Aiya, SUDAH PASTI MAPOI d one lar. What for work so hard somemore?
Tsk tsk.